Shadow Talk


Where you been?
-I’ve been around…
-You’ve been around somewhere…but haven’t been here in weeks…what gives?
You used to come here and write about all the nothin’ going on….
-Yeah…I know…..It’s just hard to put some of it into words.
-So….instead of trying to get it out,  you choose to let it fester in what’s left of what you call a brain? That’s not very bright. 
-Alright…alright….here is what has been going on….in no particular order.

The life that I have called serene for the last 4 years is no longer serene. 

For starters, I have 2 bosses.

One boss, who also happens to be one of my best friends,  is in rehab. The other boss, who happens to be the other of my best friends, is maintaining his sanity by smoking the gonja. We all got sober within a year of each other.  The boss in rehab has successfully put not only the company finances but his personal ones as well on life support, as, well as his marriage and  family. He is not in finance rehab…he is in rehab for attempting to drink himself to death.
The other is doing his best to keep us working and keep the company afloat while, also dealing with the other boss, who happens to be his older brother.


My home life is strained. I have tried real hard to keep work and home separate. The stress from one has drained into the other causing a vacuum effect.

I am a intoverted, private, keep things to myself kind of guy.

The true friends I have, I can count on one hand…..with digits left over.

I socialize with others as infrequently as humanly possible and trust about next to no one beside the ones I call true friends.

As the free digits one my one hand increase….my trust travels in the other direction.

If I get any more introverted, I might just vote myself off the island I gave created for me, myself and I.


One of the other employees I work with broke out my back windshield on my truck.  I don’t have idiot coverage.



-You want more or will that work for now?

-No…I think that’s good for now.

-Thanks….It’s good to vent every now and then. 


13 thoughts on “Shadow Talk

  1. Yes, the dumpster we call life. I understand how you feel. I have the same amount of friends, a similar pile of shit sitting on my plate, and as Betty Davis said, ” I want to be alone.”
    Good venting!
    At least YOU are still sober 🙂 You got that going for you!

  2. sorry to hear things are a bit pear shaped there, brother. I guess as mentioned, the one positive is that you’re still sober. Trying to balance evertything can be a tough juggling act, yeah? But a good vent now and then certainly helps to get it all out 🙂

    Hope everyone gets well… 🙂


    • Thanks, Paul. I hope everyone gets well also. I got so caught up in venting that I failed to mention that the brothers I work for are like brothers to me. We are real close. All I can so is be there if needed. My balancing act is not at my best but I am still trying.

  3. I’ve been thinking about you and wondering where you were. Glad you’re back out here but dude…you are really dealing with some crap right now.

    So since I am so far away I will just send good thoughts and vibes and all that other hippy shit until your life is back on track. And, like it or not, I will also be praying. 😉

    Hang tough my friend.


    PS – might I suggest a little FICTION therapy? Just a thought. 😉

  4. Brother(s) drinking themselves to death. I know this story and I hate how it ends. Introversion is underrated. Too bad we don’t have the cash to buy ourselves a private island. As for the truck window, have you made a claim? You actually might have coverage for idiocy, just not intentional idiocy.

    I am happy to be wandering around here, catching up. I’ve been doing a bit of festering myself. Perhaps I too should attempt a real post.

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