On the eve of the family holiday I just wanted to take a moment to just say thanks.
To all of you..
Who have taking the time to share your perspectives on life through
The joy and the pain of past and present
Failures and successes.
Following your blogs, liking your posts and getting to know about you through writing is something I thoroughly enjoy.
It helps me to strive to be better at this craft.
Makes me a better me.
Enjoy the holiday, if you celebrate it.
If you don’t, please just enjoy whatever you do.
Thanks for educating me with your posts when you do.
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Someday, after a while
The realization will appear Arms were meant to hold Not to cross and create fear Hands were meant to feel Not to clench and strike the dear Legs were meant to stand Not to run and disappear Feet were meant to balance Not to commandeer Maybe Someday After a while The realization Will appear
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Life is is full of unforgettable moments.
For me, being a grandparent has brought a lot of them.
It’s too cold to go outside this weekend. The kids and I have been cooped up inside.
We played Power Rangers vs. Zombies or them vs. me….I guess zombies is another word for old.
Movies were watched.
Naps were taken.
Ideas were running thin.
To avoid meltdowns….I had to think of something.
Luckily, they like button pushing…. figuratively and literally..
So, with that in mind. My lightbulb went on.
Here’s a short snippet of the result-
I love those boys.
Home is where you hang your hat
Home is where you cry Home is where you feel safe Home is where you hide It isn’t a structure It isn’t a place It isn’t on any map It isn’t what awaits It sits behind the eyes It sits within the soul It sits and feels it all It sits when out of control Seek and you will arrive Seek and you will warm Seek and you will disappear Seek and you will ride out the storm
No matter how hard I try, I just can’t seem to get a head in this world…..
Yeah….I went there.
R U 😊?
Not just at this moment…but generally speaking….or writing as it may be… How does one get there? I believe it’s an individual journey. I also believe that until I was happy with myself….as in who I am, that I couldn’t be happy WITH anyone or anything else. That occured well into my late 30’s. I’m in my early 50’s now. Does that mean I was miserable my first 30+ years of existence? No. But, That was a happiness of the growing up variety. I was a people pleaser, fad follower, just…like me please, kind of person. A portrayer of a goofball without a care while the home life was the shadow of pain I couldn’t get away from. Always right at my feet casting a darkness that hid behind the smile. My first “real” taste of happiness was my discovery of the euphoria of cocaine. It was instantaneous. I was…..HAPPY What I didn’t know at the time was that level of happiness would NEVER be attained again. That didn’t stop me from chasing it. I NEEDED that happy to make me feel anything. The chase took over a decade and I gave away EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE to pursue it. I pursued it into psychosis and faced the real possibility of a lengthy prison sentence. Chemical happiness is not happiness. It was a lie. I had to begin the pursuit again from ZERO By zero….I mean.. No family No friends No money No possessions
I GAVE all that away to pursue my so called happy I had to find a way to be comfortable with myself…. By myself… To truly find happiness. During that pursuit I realized that distractions had to be eliminated. For me, that was TV, movies anything that took time away from….me. Those were escapes. I was tired of escapes. If I could sit alone by myself, with my own thoughts, without going nuts I had a chance to find the elusive happiness. That didn’t happen overnight. It took time. It’s been over 15 years since then. The elusive true happy of me was found and nurtured throughout that time. It has allowed me to find happy with another. My younger than me wife and the ever expanding family that goes with it. But without my personal happy, none of that would be possible. There are still ups and downs,naturally, and the pursuit continues, but it’s a sustaining pursuit more than a seeking pursuit. Thought this lifetime pursuit, there has been one constant- Music It’s has been part of me for as long as I can remember. Through the hardships of then to the life of now it’s always been my companion. So I ask again… R U 😊? Whatever the answer, keep up the pursuit.
Does the human advancement of technology take us farther away from what makes us….human?
I am fortunate enough to follow and am followed by bloggers from all over the world, who come from different backgrounds and have their own perspectives on their world and the world that surrounds them.
Which is why I enjoy following.
I started the conversation…I would like to know opinions, thoughts, ideas…anything on the question.
Just leave a comment please. Any piece of enlightenment or spark of knowledge would be appreciated.
Reflections of hope
Within An ocean of despair Head full of artillery Without A declaration of warfare A simple request Action Must be taken An uneven reply Reaction Leaves one shaken Emotions on the brink Open For a resolution Triggers vocal ammo Closing Any chance for solution
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When the claws of depression
Sink in and
The last thing one wants hear
Is everything will be
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