Lost and (somewhat) found

6 years ago I lost touch with 2 things I thought were dear to me….. Reality and sanity. I don’t mean reality in the tv sense. I never got voted off an island… Truth be told I never got voted on to an island. As far as sanity goes, each person has his or her own truth to what is and what isn’t.
6 years removed and I still have trouble with what is and what isn’t. I’ve been clean and sober for that long but some wounds take longer to heal than others.
Back then I would I lived in fear of everyone and everything. I couldn’t determine real people from apparitions. More voices in my head telling me what to do than I had chemicals to quiet them with.
Now…. I enjoy silence. Still whispers going on but I know the difference now. People still come and go but….
I write these things just to get them out. I don’t live in fear anymore. I lead a normal ( whatever that really is ) life now. I’m not the same person I was 6 years ago. I’m not even sure who I am now. A work in progress, I guess.
Reality and sanity. I still don’t have a firm grip on them, but at least I’m in touch with them.

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